SoulEclipse

20091130

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  • 10:21 Eyes still droopy...I think I'll go take a nap. #
  • 16:23 Oh right. It's a Sunday today. #
  • 17:49 So dark, and it's only 5:50? o.o #
  • 20:11 I don't feel so well tonight. I'll be sleeping early. #
  • 20:28 And then, after drinking water and taking a shower, I feel fine. o.o #
  • 22:37 @bloodriot heh, just like me staying up for my older brother #
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20091129

When I say I'm bored

The only real time I'm bored is when there really isn't anything to do. However, I'm not gonna lie. Even though there wasn't really anything for me to do physically, so much has happened over the past month. I feel so many emotions rushing through me.

I hear all sorts of good news, bad news, and stories of what has been happening. There are personal issues, national issues, international issues, and then there are some tissues that needed to be put in a waste basket. I wanted to hear them and I did hear a lot of them. The catch, I'm affected emotionally. Everything has been tough on me. Ever since I revealed myself to my parents, nothing has been the same ever again.

If there was just one thing I realized, however, it's that I want someone to love me. It was late, but I want a partner I could be with. Stories made me envious of people. "I think he was lucky to have someone like that," and all other sorts of comments I said and wanted to say. It was finally time I find me a lover.

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  • 12:43 Apparently, food can make me sleep... #
  • 13:49 Internet is crap again. :x #
  • 16:52 I think it's safe to do pushups again. #
  • 16:53 Meh. Apparently, my abs still hurt #
  • 17:01 And so I got a new follower...WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE?! #
  • 17:03 Ooh. The double deck bed exercise I was told to do actually works. #
  • 17:03 But I give up too easily. x_x #
  • 01:09 I can finally sleep without much worries. G'night g uys. =) #
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20091128

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  • 10:15 Oh cool. We have a new doorknob. #
  • 10:18 Hmm. My slippers need thorough washing. #
  • 10:51 Oh no wonder. Trillian is set to refresh tweets every 2 minutes #
  • 10:55 @bloodriot how do you add tags again via email posting? *is stoopid* #
  • 10:55 @bloodriot also lazy to find my old tweet. #
  • 10:57 @bloodriot with the <,>? #
  • 11:28 @kangbonbon wait what? #
  • 11:35 Is bothering @bloodriot in gchat #
  • 12:00 Is getting bombarded with PMs everywhere x_x #
  • 13:56 Oh! I didn't think my top 10 entry yesterday would get to number 2. Yay! #
  • 15:24 I think I'll go take a nap now #
  • 16:11 So apparently, I'm not the only one getting problems with Globe... #
  • 23:09 Ew. No wonder. My Trillian stopped refreshing tweets #
  • 23:09 @bloodriot why? D: #
  • 23:09 Hmm...internet seems stable now. #
  • 23:34 My internet is loads better now, but nemmit. Why only now? D: #
  • 23:34 Hope this keeps up in the future #
  • 02:33 Too much happy thoughts keeping me awake. x_x #
  • 04:30 Now bad thoughts make me unable to sleep...nemmit! I should stop thinking too much before sleeping. #
  • 09:05 I don't feel sleepy at all, despite not sleeping the whole night. I bet I'll fall later this afternoon. #
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20091127

Chat, chat, chat

Today sure has been a chatty day. Then again, it's probably because I logged in on my guild's IRC. They sure are a fun bunch to talk to. Then, I PM'd people and got PMs everywhere as well that I just let them talk without me.

For one thing, the resident artist of the guild added me on MSN. I also told her that Khan was online and she was a fan of him mainly because 1) he's also a good artist himself, and 2) she likes his Clown/Minstrel in RO. She's a fan of minstrels. xD Anyway, we ended up in a convo with each other and chatted around.

Then there was Twitter and Google Chat with Rika because 1) she wants to be bothered, and 2) she was feeling down she can't log in on LJ at work. So, I was around to comfort her a bit when she needed it.

And there were a few more PMs here and there. Seriously, where have they all been coming from? :o Fun though. =p

Of course, the highlight of the day has to be talking to my "older brother" in England. ^^ He's surprisingly early today. Woops, gotta rush. I'mma go talk to him more. xD

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  • 17:53 I has new haircut. #
  • 17:55 Weird. I tried doing pushups but my abs hurt, not my triceps. #
  • 18:29 I was gonna fanboy something to someone but then I remembered he wouldn't know a damn thing if I tried to explain. #
  • 07:57 Good morning sore muscles. Lulz #
  • 08:15 @bloodriot D: #
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20091126

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20091125

It's finally finished!


Eios Hyperion gets colored ass
by ~kyujinueno on deviantART

I didn't get to sleep last night so I ended up fixing this for most of the night. It helps that I recently got tips on how to do shadowing from a friend so I decided to try it out. Guess what? It helped tons. ^^

I got lazy doing the arrow though so enjoy the light show instead. xD

Well, that's it for now. I'll try to color something else too.

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  • 10:00 Finally, the battery died. *charge* #
  • 13:04 I'm hungry /understatement #
  • 16:15 I'm not hungry anymore. Yey #
  • 22:40 You know what? Fuck you. #
  • 22:40 Sorry. I needed a vent. #
  • 23:19 I'm so extremely pissed off right now. Gawd, I HATE YOU! #
  • 23:23 Ugh. I just wasted my time listening to you. I swear, I really, really hate it when you talk all so flowery and verbose #
  • 23:26 Worst night ever #
  • 04:25 Can't sleep. :< #
  • 05:17 Finally adding shade to the Eios sketch @ponkhan asked to color. #
  • 05:31 Oh that's right. Today's the Monster's Riot #
  • 07:06 @rxtmr Word of the Year: Jackass. Two words: President Obama. Two more words: Kanye West. #
  • 07:09 @rxtmr My personal word of the year is brother, because I met one when I opened up to a stranger. #
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20091124

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  • 12:11 Ahh! So lazy! #
  • 13:53 Waaa! I don't want to go to class just yet! :< #
  • 14:34 Funny. My hand still smells of the garlic and cheese pizza I ate yesterday #
  • 14:46 @bloodriot Do you manually add tags to your batch tweets in LJ or...? #
  • 15:02 @bloodriot Thanks #
  • 16:59 Oh I didn't even know you could change the layout of twitter. Whee~ #
  • 20:43 Haaa! I finally finished that damn missi on! /Caesar4 #
  • 20:57 I just realized my twitter background pic isn't visible when the monitor isn't wide screen. #
  • 21:04 Thar. Fixed it. :D #
  • 23:34 Even better. My picture is now colored. :D #
  • 23:34 Now I have to add shading to Eios. xDDD #
  • 23:44 @bloodriot that still sounds more like panting #
  • 00:47 Oh. I just realized my internet's doing better today. #
  • 09:05 Low bat but my phone is still alive. #
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20091123

Boring days, here we go

So Intrams week is here and I don't have a sport to play, sadly. PE will be suspended until next week so I really don't have any sport to play for one whole week. This also means I have nothing to do for one whole week. It's not like I'll be cheering every single hour, right?

I ended up just staying in my room for much of my day today. I really have nothing to do. At first, I just sketch a quick work of what happened to me last night. (I ended up sleeping with my headset still on my ears, listening to The Morning Rush podcasts while waiting for my brother to go back in MSN). Yeah, I made a bird's eye view of me sleeping on bed this morning.

I ate lunch outside, like usual. Played games or listened to more podcasts the whole day. Fixed my social networks including fixing my Twitter account's layout and adding feeds for my Facebook. Took naps here and there. Did breathing exercises. Sweeped the floor. Finally, colored a lineart that I meant to color years ago.

And I'm still the only one in my room. *sigh*

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  • 10:53 I seriously need a new headset... #
  • 10:54 It's sad because my current headset was only a few months old #
  • 10:54 Also, I got too used to my NES emulator... #
  • 10:59 And my internet is still crap, damn it! #
  • 11:28 So, what's new? #
  • 13:32 Today would have been a very good day if it weren't for the internet dying on me often. *kick* #
  • 13:33 It sure does pick the worst times to be a retard: when I finally have something to do over the net! #
  • 13:51 Despite the internet being a retard though, I'm so excited, I could kick someone on the face just to let it loose! #
  • 00:32 I'm thinking of subscribing to a newspaper but that would mean I would have to spend more money than usual... #
  • 08:20 @rxtmr Greetings to the family in Antipolo, especially to my nieces Leann and Batchi. I fell asleep last night while listening to podcasts #
  • 08:43 @rxtmr "I'm the Ghost of Christmas Future! Kaso naligaw ako e kaya nagsasalita ako ngayon." #
  • 08:44 @rxtmr "Alam mo kung saan yung bahay ni Uncle Scrooge?" #
  • 09:04 @rxtmr "nandesu ka" is "what?" and "Arigato Gozaimashita" is like "Thank You" in past tense. #
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20091122

Can't possibly contain it

There really isn't anything to do much today. It's the same old day without school. I'm just lying around in bed, waiting for the time I can get out for a late lunch, and yet I don't feel bored at all. Quite the opposite, really.

I feel excited and giddy that I can't contain it somehow. Despite my numerous complaints in Twitter about the internet being slow, I just really feel happy today. I'm just really looking forward to chatting with a friend later tonight. Despite being half a world apart, we just feel comfortable just talking to each other. In a way, we treat each other like brothers.

Also, there was this fact that my mom asked me where I would want to go for vacation, outside the Philippines, of course. My first pick was England. It's a good place, says my mom, but it's also expensive. Now, if money wasn't such a worry right now, I'd imagine what kind of place England will be. Of course there will be sight seeings like looking at the Big Ben or something. I also wanted to check a library there though I wonder if I can take pictures while inside...probably not. Then there's also the fact that I can meet two of my friends, which includes my brother whom I mentioned earlier.

Ahh~ Just thinking about this makes me want to run as fast as I could.

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20091121

Contagious

I remember a time when my parents and I were all angry at each other. I forget the reason why but I think it was something trivial. Come to think of it, I wouldn't have forgotten the reason why if it wasn't so trivial in the first place.

It was dismissal time, a time for us to go home. My dad just arrived in school, waiting for us to get in the car. I don't remember but I think it was my mistake that fueled the anger. There was miscommunication going on. My mom was angry at my dad and I forgot why. I, myself, became frustrated at all these. Then, my dad found out and he became angry as well. It was contagious.

However, unlike my mom and I, my dad became fed up that he actually resolved to leave us behind in school. I knew about it because I was there. So, at the gate, I just stood there, blocking his path with my arms and legs wide open.

I told him, "If you leave, then you'd have to pass through me," or something similar. My heart was normal. I think it was because I was both confident that he'd never run the car towards me and that my anger was greater than my fear of life that time. I don't know whether if it was foolish or brave but I just did it.

In any case, my mom finally got in and so did I. I can't remember what happened during the car. Really, I think the reason must have been trivial, because right now, I don't feel angry at them at all.

20091117

A week later

Note to self, take out the laundry first before taking a shower. Long walks equal deathhaving to perspire a bit more.

So it hit me. We didn't have a formal game of Softball, but I felt tired after the practice. So that's how pitchers feel after a while. I felt tired but it's a different kind. Rather than having to gasp for air, it felt more like a mental exhaustion. You had to catch the ball thrown to you by the pitcher. You had to watch the ball closely. You had to throw the ball in a certain form so that it would follow a certain arc, throw it at enough strength to cover a certain distance, etc...

All in all, it was actually tougher than my first impression of what it should be. I need a lot more practice in pitching the ball; I've got so many throws that went out the normal hitting range. My catcher said I was improving though. That said, I still wonder why he wasn't the pitcher instead. Oh well, not that I don't want the position anyway.

In another note, my boxers kept giving me a wedgie. I guess I have to work out my butt. I'll try briefs next time.

20091110

Of sleep and oversleeping

So I was able to wake up early for P.E. class. It's not so hard after all. Good thing the class was at 8 AM and not at 7 AM. I did have a dream though. I dreamt that I had found my lost fork. Yeah, for some reason my fork was missing. My spoon was intact though.

P.E. was about Softball so I have some idea on what's in it. I knew what a battery is, some of the rules, etc... I have to thank Baseball mangas for that. Pity though, I only appreciated baseball AFTER I came to visit my baseball player cousin in the US.

So after, I had my breakfast, checked my bank account, and stayed back at the dorm. At one point at noon, I decided to sleep. I thought to myself I should wake up for my next class. You know what, I think I did. I think at one point I woke up. However, I was too lazy to move my butt that I fell asleep again. The fact that I was comfortable in my boxers didn't help me. I woke up just when the class was supposed to end. Bummer.

Speaking of boxers, I'm not sure whether to wear one again for tonight or wait for Wednesday evening...I only have two pairs along with me. I didn't think I'd be converted to a boxers kind of person. *laugh*

20091105

Stressed out?

Classes for me just started and already I'm stressed out. Well, truth be told, I'm stressed out for different reasons though.

I am at least grateful that I am still able to enroll for this sem. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not but I only have four subjects now due to complications. For example, although I was advised to get Biology, I couldn't because there aren't any Biology subjects this year. Having nothing to do about it, I'm left with just four.

Things are looking pretty good as well...and smell good. At the constant advice my parents and some other people keep telling me, I changed my laundry services. Now, my stuff smells fresher. That would keep them from complaining too much about how my clothes smell. They'd have to keep sending me money to pay for it though.

I also have a new outlook, kind of. I used to be afraid to go to certain places because of my deep-rooted insecurity. When I went to enroll though, I still felt it a bit but I was able to just go on. Sure I was nervous at first but that's what got me to enroll this school year. Of course, I have to promise to do the best I can for this semester.

So what's up. Why am I stressed? Well, the reason is because a friend, a forum administrator, asked me out to become a moderator for his forum. As early as my second day, something happened between one of the members and the admin himself. I had to immediately act out as a mediator between the two to clear up misunderstandings. What's more, I just realized that the news have spread to other members as well.

Some drama ensues. Another member, my closest friend, got hold of the news and threatened to leave if the admin was being dictatorial in his website. There are truths in his statements. After all, who would want a dictator in a forum who keeps pulling the strings on members in a supposed free speech forum. I didn't want that to happen to the admin so I have to tell on him. I didn't want my friend to leave either because, well, he is my closest friend after all.

Even more, I felt I was being picked by some of the members. They're just playing and having fun, of course. However, due to the stress I felt on tackling the issue above, I'm easily getting frustrated. Luckily, I just tried to ignore much of that, only being able to express it myself after I told off the admin on what he was supposed to do.

And now, I'm just taking a deep breath.

My current goal is to get this current issue to resolve today. I want to clear every single misunderstanding that has appeared because of the admin's actions. Also, I have thought that if I am being picked on again, I'll have to tell them off and warn them to stop. If not, I have a valid reason to block them due to harrassing a moderator.

*sigh*

My heart is pounding again.